Monday, October 18, 2010

Monday, Monday

It is Monday.  Doesn't really matter to me that it is.  Right now my weekends are frantic with soccer and stuff.  Norman has Tuesdays and Wednesdays off.  So Monday, right now, is just another day of work, school and household chores....soccer practice in the evening (although I think that this is the last week of one of them). 

I like Norman being on day shift.  I am getting more done every day (although the house doesn't look like it) and I am losing weight (we are eating meals like normal people).  His days off don't feel weird to me like they did when he was on 2nd shift.  For the most part, everything stays the same, he is just home.

The only complaint I have, and it isn't really a complaint....more of a difficulty.....is that I am not a morning person anymore.  Mind you, I am NOT a night person.  I really prefer to be in bed around 8:30 p.m. and we are some nights.  In younger days I would bound out of bed at 5 a.m. and the world would be my stage......sometimes all my work would be done by 8 a.m.  LOL  Now, I am dragging out of bed at 4:55 a.m.  Stumbling around starting laundry and the dishwasher.  I have a nice routine going so I am still getting things done, but I feel like I have been hit by a truck....every single morning.  LOL  Maybe the difficulty lies in that I am getting up early every-single-day.  Norman has to get up at 5 on the weekends for work.  Lee has to be up early for school on Tuesday/Wednesday.  Abby still wakes up at least once a night and sometimes twice......I had to let Sadie out and back in once last night.  Maybe I will feel better when Abby starts sleeping through the night.  For now, I am making the best of it.  Getting off the internet and taking a shower.  It's time to start the day!

Sunday, October 17, 2010

My Precious Children

I love all my children equally and try very hard to be fair in all decisions, time spent with them, etc.....but I am loving this special mother-daughter relationship with Abby.  Yes, I do realize that she is only 5 months old and I anticipate that our relationship will only grow, get sweeter and be tested over time, but it sure is nice to look into her chubby, little, round face with her tongue hanging out.....as she tries to eat every magazine she can get her hands on.....and her socks.  LOL  She is a perfect snuggle bunny......all of my kids are......I just love her to pieces.

Now Bear, he is being incredibly cute lately.  My personal favorite is when you compliment him and he says "awww shucks".  It is too cute!!!

Greg caught a tame rabbit in his live trap yesterday.  That is good because the little bugger got out a few months ago and they couldn't catch it.  Lee is looking forward to his first year deer hunting with his bow. 

So much going on here as my children just keep growing.  Everything changes :)  I guess that is enough rambling for today.  It is a beautiful fall day and we have soccer games to attend.  I hope everyone has a wonderful day :)  And a wonderful week!

Friday, October 15, 2010

God is carrying Me

Remember the poem, Footprints in the Sand?  That's how I have felt the last few weeks.  Dealing with a very stressful family situation, an upcoming move along with normal kid/household stuff has really taken it's toll on me.  Some days I feel like screaming, some like crying and some like running away.  For the most part I don't do any of those and I know the only reason why is that God is carrying me.

You see, God never promised that everything would be roses, He just promised that He would be there.  I have felt God so many times in the last few weeks.....in answered prayers, comfort from a friend, a verse from God's word.  Sometimes the tears are comforting, as I have begun to see how past hurts from the same people have shaped issues I am still dealing with to this day.  I am beginning to see how parts of the puzzle of my life have been fitted together.  I am thankful, though, for everything  that I have been through, because all of my past has made me, ME. 

This week was particularly overwhelming for me.  So I have taken a step back and am just focusing on the normal household tasks and the kids.  The kids need me and they need me to be completely available to them, emotionally and physically.  So does my wonderful husband.  I really don't know how he has managed in this situation for so many years.  He is truly my hero :) 

So, my encouragement for the day is that you are never alone.  God is always there, watching, listening, comforting and carrying.  I am so thankful to have such a big, loving, faithful, merciful God.