tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30251049.post8589433919359476435..comments2023-04-05T03:38:42.355-07:00Comments on Living, Loving and Learning with the Lord: Reflections on the PastCariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18423023401847281069noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30251049.post-76337764053477740522009-07-24T20:29:53.336-07:002009-07-24T20:29:53.336-07:00Carie I remember Denise from going to Catholic gra...Carie I remember Denise from going to Catholic gradeschool with her. She always seemed very shy and to herself. I thought it was neat that her birthday was on Valentine's Day. I too remember that terrible day that she died. All I could think of was I ever mean to her or I should have been friendlier to her in school. After she died I remember seeing her mom at Church and feeling so sorry for her. I can't image the pain a mother goes through when her child kills themself. My uncle killed himself about 10 years ago and I remember thinking the same thing, what could I have done different. But I think that someone who kills themself has a troubled spirit and maybe there is nothing anyone can do sometimes. I haven't seen Denise's family in a long time, one reason proably because I go to the Christian Church now instead of St. Thomas, but I hope they have found some peace. All I can think to do is pray.Kelly Rossnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30251049.post-71932422223571906042009-03-05T08:13:00.000-08:002009-03-05T08:13:00.000-08:00I am so proud of you! You are allowing God to show...I am so proud of you! You are allowing God to show you pain that you needed to deal with. What a giant step in the right direction!<BR/><BR/>God is sovereign despite the fact that we sometimes never understand why He allows certain circumstances to occur. Thankfully He always sees the bigger picture. <BR/><BR/>Hopefully, this will bring closure and peace helping you to move forward in the peace of Christ.<BR/><BR/>Keep searching my friend, God will keep showing you areas to let Him clean up!! I am so excited for you!!!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30251049.post-31417003618036490412009-02-24T14:13:00.000-08:002009-02-24T14:13:00.000-08:00I too lost a dear friend in high school. It wasn'...I too lost a dear friend in high school. It wasn't a suicide, but a car accident. Those wounds are so hard to heal. I spoke to him about 10 minutes before the accident. I even drove up on the accident. It was a horrific night that will always replay in my mind. But that night changed me in so many ways. It was kind of a grow up now lesson. I changed everything in my life. My friends, my hobbies, everything. Everything that didn't make sense or didn't have a purpose. I remember thinking things are different now and that is ok. God will direct me. And of course he did. I am convinced that the night of the accident brought me to where I am today. Had I not gotten my head straight then, I would not cherish all that I have today. It taught me to be thankful and know that I am blessed. I often visit my friend's grave site as well. It has been 13 years. It still makes me cry but I try to just learn from it everytime. Sorry, I am rambling. Your story just struck a chord with me. BlessingsJoy Comes in the Morninghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02565429387952969679noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30251049.post-9816941485097124122009-02-23T15:39:00.000-08:002009-02-23T15:39:00.000-08:00Carie-first off, thanks for sharing that. Several...Carie-first off, thanks for sharing that. Several of us have had someone we know commit suicide. There will never be an answer to you question of why. Never. If you could talk to her today-she would most likely say the same thing-she had no idea why. Some get so low, they just want the pain to end-but she took that reason for her pain with her. It was something that had been brewing for a very long time-very long time. Frankly-suicide is selfish and her actions had direct negative effects on several, several people. You were what? 14 or 15 years old? No way you could have "picked" up on anything being amiss. You are not responsible for someone else's actions and you are right-God will and can heal this scar in you. Lifting you up in prayers dear. Good that you were able to weep and start to truly heal.Sherihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18061727625555735292noreply@blogger.com